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Saturday, 5 January 2013

Last Years Goals

How well did you do with your last years New year resolutions or goals , did you manage to achieve them all, some, a few or none ?

I didnt do quite as well as the year before but i did achieve or at least touch on some things from my list of things that i wanted to achieve.

So here is a list of my goals that i achieved or touched on...

I learned how to make a lot of home made cleaning and washing stuff, with a lot of help from pinteret, it inspired me to try different things and i did.
I tried the bench cleaner, the drain unblocker, the hand soap and washing powder and softner, i used all of them constantly for about 9 months , until i realised that although my clothes were clean, they had gone very dull looking and somethings went grey, especially the whites.
 I do intend to still try other things, i love being able to create and make things that are practical.

As for learning new Beauty Tips and Ideas, thats an on going process and it never fails to excite me and inspire me.
I am thinking of toning things down a little due to my age, but i am at peace with my makeup routines just now.

Home Organization, started off brilliantly, lapsed on and off but i do enjoy organization so i always come back to it eventually.
Getting the rest of the family to follow suit is the hardest part .

Healthy Eating was a nightmare, im constantly concerned about eating healthier but unfortunately my food budget makes if very difficult for me to get my head around it and work something out.
I am however going to look into it again this year and hopefully start using my new crock pot .

Gardening was not my strong point, we managed to clear it but our budget didnt allow for any drastic changes which i was really dissapointed about, but wel see what this yr has to bring.

I didnt learn any more on frugal living other than what i already new and i didnt create any gifts as such last year as sometimes by the time you buy what you need to create something, its not always cheaper.
I will however keep it in mind because it something i enjoy doing.

Anyway, that is my Hits and Misses from last year, 
How did you do ? xxx

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

Time to reflect and take stock

I have been taking stock a lot lately about how lost and empty i have become.

At this time of year i get to thinking about my son, my girls, my family and my life, and it finally dawned on me the other day that it will be three years this January since we said goodbye to my son mark , 3 years already, wow.

Then i get a second kick in the gut when i realised how much time has been wasted, how much of ourselves we have lost to grief, anger, weakness and pain and how much less we are than the people we were before.

Dont get me wrong, this blog post is not about self pity, its simply a wake up call and my expression of it.

Grief or loss wakes you up to things you took for granted before, it helps you see so much clearer what is important in life and how trivial the small issues really are.

My youngest daughter and i were having a heart to heart the other day about a period of time where our friends and loved ones felt it was a safe time to tell us (individually and at seperate times ) just how different we'd become and not in a good way, like wed lost our personalities and the love for life ect.

Well in hindsight its fair to say they were right in a way, only we didnt see it as a bad thing, how could they possibly understand the emptiness we were feeling or the way we had learned to blow off the trivial things that to be fair were still part of their everyday life.

When you are affected by loss or grief, its almost as if you've been touched, sectioned out from everyone else who has never been through it.
You put up barriers and become very self contained, your main concern is your loved ones and making sure they are ok and coping despite any little dramas going on around you.
It kind of becomes a non intentional selfish barrier, although saying that, it certainly doesnt stop you from being aware of others problems and troubles, but deciphering whats genuine and whats trvial becomes second nature in deciding whether to act or get involved.

The tole something like this has on families and indeed individuals is very different for everyone, but for us, we became lost sheep and for the most part were still wandering.

 My eldest daughter, her life has been put on hold, she cant seem to move forward, shes so engulfed in the pain and anger and loss thats shes just stuck,luckily she has good friends who support her.
She has a job interview on friday so fingers crossed that's the start of her moving forward with her life :).

My youngest daughter has been very lucky in the respect that she has outside interests to keep her going, she goes to Uni and works Three nights a week, has a good man who loves her and a great circle of friends to support her.
That said, i still worry about her as shes so deep and they will both keep things from me rather than upset me with it, sad but true, they love me so much.

My husband has basically shut himself off in his own world, hes kept his fishing hobby which gives him a break and a chance to be with old friends and he enjoys a drink with our friends on a saturday but the lads keep pretty much to themselves.

Hes lost his love for D.I.Y, he loved to be busy, making things either in the home or for the garden but thats long gone, he actually gets annoyed when hes asked to do something like decorating ect and weve both become pretty laid back about both the house and garden which is so unlike us.


Me, well i just feel like ive had the stuffing knocked out of me, i find it so hard to stay focussed these days, i get confused easily and suffer from anxiety when trying something new or going out anywhere.
Ive had back issues for yrs but because of my lack of exercise or getting out my weight has ballooned and so the back problems have worsened, making everyday house hold chores a painful effort for me.
My husband does all the main heavy chores bless him.

So how does one try to pick up the pieces after something like this ?
One step at a time, literally.

I will address my own issues and try to involve the rest of the family in it, hoping to encourage them to want to try the same or similar efforts to get back into the land of the living with me.
Naturally they will do their own thing in their own time but hopefully if i set some goals for myself they will be supportive and join me.

For me its about going back to basics,
Getting back into some routine at home would be a big help, 
a cleaning schedule and organization are top priority.
Then we need to address a healthy eating plan, its hard on a tight budget but if we pull together for meal ideas we should pull it off.
Then getting out of this house more often, short walks, visiting friends and family would not only help with my weight but will stop me from feeling hemmed in a lot of the time.
A gentle or fun exercise regime is a must, must try to rope friends and family in on it for support as i get bored easily.
Building up my confidence and setting myself small challenges should help with anxiety and help my memory or to stay more foccussed.
Still look for work and encourage my hubby to do the same as it can get a bit soul destroying after a while with no luck.
Keep my website and this blog updated with more personal posts and achievements to help me to succeed and challenge myself more.

If you have experienced anything similar and have managed to come out the other end and rebuild your lives, id love to hear about it.
Thanks for reading xxx

Feeling a little Humbled right now

My youngest daughters fella and i were having a conversation tonight about weird dreams ect that ultimately led to conversations about Seances and Ouija boards and then to my experiences with Spirit and such. 

 Talking about my many different experiences with spirit and the paranormal has humbled me no end and made me remember just how privileged i have been to be honored with such trust and insight, even though its been a roller coaster of emotions for both myself and the people involved. 

I have seen and experienced some wonderful things, i have earned the trust and devotion of many people who have asked for my help in the past, although not every experience has been a good one and may have given the most hardened skeptic nightmares. These experiences have taught me, honor, respect, honesty, self control, and a lot of different ways to view the world both as a believer and a skeptic.

 I realised tonight just how much i miss being involved, but spirit is the teacher, it knows when one is too weak or lacks the strength to carry on in a meaningful and non harmful manner and will almost certainly shut you down to help you heal if neccessary. 

I have not lost my gifts, however i have lost my confidence which keeps me from jumping back in with feet first but im glad as i know im not strong enough to be as involved as i once was right now. 

Its funny how much we take for granted even in situations like mine, i remember writing my answer to a post i put on here yesterday about whether it might be possible to sense death before it happens. I wrote my answer so matter of factly and without issue that when i read it back to myself it made me take stock.

 How does someone say they can sense terminal illness and know how long they have left to live without flackering, like its nothing ?
 Its Megga, its not normal, its horrible and yet i can do that and have done on several occasions.
 It must have sounded so callous and unforgiving, but trust me its not.

 Im emphatic, which means i feel their pain, anxiety, the tole the illness has took apon that body and ultimately how they feel about themselves at that time.
 I can read the pain on someones face, or see the lost soul behind the eyes, struggling and hanging on even though some just wish to go to sleep and not wake up to end the suffering both for themselves and their families.
 So no, its not something i take lightly and i have no idea why i have been left with it only to say, for those i have told it has been a blessing to the families, its helped prepare them and it gives them real insight into whats truely going on with that person.

 I hope this helps explain a little about what being sensitive involves and how it effects me as an individual as we are all very different when it comes to this kind of thing. 
 Thanks for reading xxx

Wednesday, 13 June 2012

What would you do ?

If you were able to do whatever you wanted for a day... and not have to worry about the distance or the money or anything... what would you do?

Death Penalty Debate

What are your views on the death penalty ?
 Do you believe two wrongs make a right in cases such as murder ect ?

 Im pretty much on the fence with this, do i believe in an eye for an eye, or two wrongs making a right ?
 im not so sure. I cant say how i would feel if someone hurt or killed one of my loved ones, sure im human, id want revenge, but is their death the answer and what hole would it fill ?
ok im rambling now, like i said i just dont know, il sit on the fence a bit longer i think and see what else people think x

Conspiracey Theories - debate

What are your thoughts and views on conspiracey theories, do you believe theres any truth in them or is it just a ploy to scare people ? let us know what you think ? I have some pretty strong views on certain areas of the conspiracey field, whilst others seem a lil far fetched,but the secret is to study the claims from many sources, not pass judgement on a first glance. Do i believe in Aliens ? yep i sure do , do i belive in government cover ups ? you bet i do xxx

sex before or after marriage ? - debate

what are your views on this topic ? Personally id rather the younguns try before they buy these days, thats not to say i agree with kids just giving themselves freely to every tom , dick and harry, but i think that the sanctimony of marriage and engagement has lost value to the younger generation. id be quite happy for my girls to live with their partners before they contemplated marriage, its not something they would do likely as both like their own space and both have enough decencey to do it on their own terms. Basically id rather they did that than get married too quickly to someone they dont really know and have a messy divorce hanging around their neck or worst case sinario, stay married and misserable just to save face.

Should life mean life ? - debate

Here in the uk if you are served a life sentance you will get twenty five yrs , its very rare that you will serve that full sentance, its more likely to be halfed or less with good behaviour. In the usa, life means life, mostly served without the right to parole, even if you get sentanced to life with the possibilty of parole it takes a long long time for them to even consider it. Why is it so different in each country and what in your opinion is the correct answer, should life mean life ? or is the sentance just a mockery to those left behind? x

Should prostitution be legalised ? - debate

What do you think, would legalising prostitution and making all prostitutes submit to sdt testing help make it safer or just cause more problems ? Share your views with us x

Todays violence - debate

How much truth is there do you think that video games, religion and the media have a masive inpact on violence in our youths and others today ? Should we just discount the idea as crap and making excuses, or should we take stock and wonder where the ideas for the actions come from ?

Homosexuality - debate or not to debate ?

Homosexuality is a topic with many different opinions. Most have to do with Religion,Gender,Personal thoughts and Beliefs and Myths / Rumours. Personally i dont have a problem with gay couples/people as long as they keep their feelings for each other for their own private time . What are your views ?

Wednesday, 23 May 2012

Howdy Folks - New Challenge

Long time no see my friends, i must appologise as its been a really hectic year already and its no where near getting any easier just yet. However ive been wanting to get back on here for a while now but ive been very indecisive about what i want to do next. Im in two minds whether to give up my website or to put as much of the content on here as is plausable, but then my third mind tells me to just give its content to another site, GRRRRR whats a girl to do ???? Anyway before i beat myself up over that decision any more today, i thought id share with you the challenge i set myself over the weekend. I decided that i was going to shop my own stock of toiletries and try my damnest not to purchase anything i dont need no matter how tempting it is. Now weve been doing very well with embracing our frugal lives as far as making my own soap powder/liquids and softner , plus cleaning solutions for my kitchen ect, but im excited to move on to hand and body lotions and soaps ect but i want to use up everything we have before i do so im not tempted to bottle out or have waste. I love experimenting with home made things and so far i havent been dissapointed, but we have a ton of products to use up first that ive either bought or weve recieved as gifts ect. My youngest daughter who is almost 21, is practically trying every brand of brand named shampoo, conditioner and body washes at the moment and i have to admit, sometimes i cant resist the urge to try it at least once. Luckily for me i appreciate she buys her stuff with her own money there for it is hers and i dont abuse the fact, as much as she would let me so my challenge will be both fun and pretty daunting at the same time. Pop back to find out how it goes in future posts, all the best xxx

Saturday, 19 November 2011

hello all , im back !!

Ive been taking time out from my pc world for a while as i had other issues that needed dealing with first, but hopefully il get back on track asap.

Il be adding lots of tips and tricks on do it yourself items on all kinds of topics so stay tuned for those and that wonderful time of the year is coming up so il be sharing ideas on that too.

Be patient folks, im hopeing the wait will be worth it for you :) xxx

Sunday, 28 August 2011

Busy, Busy , Busy

Ive spent the last couple of weeks creating a home station which consists of several binders and umpteen note books , plus some file storage boxes.
Ive concentrated on things by their importance and have filed them accordingly, im looking forward to sharing them with you once i get everything up to date and filled in.

So far i have a Family file consisting of important and emergancey phone numbers, medical histories and many other day to day uses.
It also contains budgeting and ideas how to save money in every area possible, it contains many lists and notes for me to still attend too but its coming along nicely.

I also created a Utilities file where i have added all my utilities for the past two yrs, after two yrs they get destroyed.

Then the one il be enjoying very soon is my Occasions file, full of ideas for christmas, including a budget for gifts, gift ideas, the best time to start planning and putting things into practice, im really excited about that one.
It was going to just be a xmas file until i realised that i could apply all my good ideas and budgeting skills to every special occasion so it made sense to keep it all together.

So although its been a bit of a chore and a lot of headaches trying to think of everything, its all coming together nicely and will be of tremendous assistance to us all once compleated. I have to admit that now the files are being filled im actually enjoying the process and will continue to add things until im satisfied we have everything we need in the one place, no more letters laying on my benches for us, grrrrr.
Looking forward to sharing more on this with you all soon xxx

Monday, 15 August 2011

lordy , are we in trouble

i spent the whole of today either on the phone sorting out the effects of my daughter living here and being a mature student and making plans and creating intenaries for the different areas of our expenses.

I started by looking at what i have coming in now, to what we will have in 3 weeks time when our world turns upside down again, and compared living expenses and made lists of bills and neccessary expenditures and finally if and where i can cut back.

Unfortunately i cant cut back very much this time as id already skimmed things down the last time around, however it has made me very concious of costs such as food , toiletries and cleaning stuff and much more.

Already ive been hunting down the shops in my area on line looking for bargains and compairing prices, and tommorow i hit the streets to do more of the same.

One good thing to come out of all of this mayhem and worry is the fact it makes you so much more aware of how you live and what you waste without giving it a second thought, unless you end up in a similar situation to me.

My daughter and i listed ways on how to save money on our gas, electric, water ect just by being more aware of turning things off, down or using smaller measures or spending less time doing things.

For e.g ....
Take more showers other than baths to save on water, but dont spend all day in it, get washed, hair done, shave ect and get out, done.
Dont leave the tap running whilst brushing your teeth .

For electric, unplug or switch off appliances at the mains b4 bed, dont leave things on standby, dont leave lights on in empty rooms and only fill the kettle with the amount of water neccessary.

For gas, turn your heating down a notch and wrap up more.
The only thing in my house that is gas is my boiler and heating and we are aware not to waste the hot water ect.

We will be putting these and many other plans into action immediately so please wish us luck, and for those that pray, please bare us in mind, thankyou x

Sunday, 14 August 2011

Frugal, frugal, frugal.

As some of you may have noticed im going all out at the minute trying to find ways to cut back and save money due to our up and coming changes in circumstances at the end of this month.

It certainly seems as if im the only one doing the worrying (as is normally the case)so im really getting down to the nitty gritty of this frugal living lark.

Im not a stranger to it, as i started my journey of frugality last year but i only applied it to certain areas of my life as some how thus far we have survived the last financial blow, but im proud to say it certainly opened my eyes and i enjoy certain aspects of it.
Dont get me wrong folks, id be a liar if i said i never longed to be frivilous from time to time, but we do what we can when we can.

Ive spent a little money on my credit card a couple of times this year just to stop myself from going insane buy doing small projects in the house or to buy clothes but i always make sure no matter how bad things get to pay more than the minimum payments just to keep my head above water with any debt.

So please bare with me as i list all ideas to help me out and hopefully some of you guys too, lets face it, im sure we could all do with re thinking our finances and the way we live from time to time :) x

Sunday, 7 August 2011

what are my plans for this week ?

Im in serious need of some large plastic boxes with lids to store a lot of the stuff i have removed from the 3 rooms ive been working on up to the loft.

here is where the money part comes into the project...

i need a shower rail the width of the shower room,

I need to fill all the holes where weve moved shelves ect in the walls and tiles.

i need a tin of paint to create a painted border in the bedroom

I need to paint the showers corner shelves and maybe the wall shelves too, wel see.

possibly paint the bathroom ceiling blue ?

possibly paint mirror frame in bedroom ?

get a longer length of tv ariel cable

i need at least 3 boxes, probably more but il get a few at a time

I will be purging and selling some craft stuff on face book so if anyones interested you can check it out, look me up, wendy jacobs.

So it looks like another busy week ahead, i just wish it was done so i could start somewhere else :)
i love the challenge of creating new looks on a tight budget by simply re using what you already have and just dressing it a little differently, roll on the next project xxx

Friday, 5 August 2011

An inspiring poem

picture a scene full of grass that is new
put in some flowers and cover them with due
picture a fence that enfolds all of this
put in the children and blow them a kiss

picture the blue skies that glide up above
put in the sun with its rays full of love
picture the birds that swoon to the ground
put in their song and cherrish the sound.

picture the family gatherd about
put in some animals, some sml and some stout
picture our world with a smile on your face
and put in the memories of this beautiful place.

by woo xxx

Finding my old poems

I just happened apon some of my poetry i wrote years ago, some may find it a bit mushy or intense but he noones perfect right :)
Anyway, i thought id share some of it here as a keep sake to myself, so here goes with number one ...

writing a poem
is a very special thing
when you think of the heartache
or joy it can bring.

you open your heart
and reach right inside
and your feelings flow out
like a wave on the tide.

it really wont matter
if it doesnt rhyme
as it means the same thing
when your captured in time.

so put pen to paper
and see how you go
and feel the waves crashing
as the words start to flow.

by woo xxx

Graphics Disclaimer

From time to time il be adding new headers or creating headers for topics in paint shop pro, it has been a love of mine for around ten yrs now and ive been neglecting it apart from headers for my website so i intend to do a few and throw them in here and there.

Please dont be put off by the use of some of the graphics i may use, they are not meant to offend anyone, i see the beauty in most things and have gone way beyond what a devious mind can create.

So without futher ado, heres my disclaimer for those of you who may have any queries about any of the graphics i use....

All of the art i create is done in paintshop pro using tubes, tubes are cut outs of other people creations or art work that is shared for the most part with permission to adjust and create new works of art.
I do not claim the art as my own, but i do take pride in it and will except compliments :)
If you have any futher questions please approach me in a civil manner
thankyou x